Since Colt left for Korea I have been having to face one of my biggest fears, living alone. I had the option to stay with my mom once Colt left, but I knew that it was time for me to have a place of my own. To some people this may seem so silly but it truly is something that has always made me extremely uncomfortable. When I was searching for a place for Colt and I to live while he was in basic it was quite a challenge. I searched and searched day in and day out for several weeks. When I found the town home we now live in I just knew it was right. I felt safe, comfortable, and "at home" as soon as drove in the neighborhood and walked in the place. It was the perfect location between school, family, friends, and the mall. Having a place for Colt and I to spend our first month of marriage together was one of the best decisions we ever made. Many people ask why I didn't just stay with my mom and save our money, but there was just something inside me saying it was time to step forward in this chapter of my life. Not only was I ready to face my fears, but I also wanted a place to display and use all of our new wedding gifts and house decor. I am so glad that I listened to my gut feeling and decided to get our own place. Not only was it amazing having a place of our own while Colt was home, but I have also learned to love being by myself in our town home. I have learned to not be scared of the silence and instead enjoy the quiet peaceful time I have when I am here. I love being able to come home and relax on my own couch, with my own blanket, and my own move at my own timing. I am able to concentrate on my school work and business without any interruptions.
Although I would rather have my husband here with me to spend time with, help out, fix things, and do the "manly duties" like taking out the trash (lol), I have come to appreciate this independence. It is interesting because most would think during such a lonely, sad, period in our lives I would hate being alone. Honestly, I have come to enjoy the quietness and just snuggling with my dogs. It is nice to know that I can go to school, work, visit with family, and go out with my friends and still come home to my own quiet little place.
It will be so nice when Colt and I get to experience this together with one another and our own family.
New Year, New Baby!
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ReplyDeleteMy grandfather served in the Air Force for 23 years. My grandmother is quick to point out that she also served 23 years in the Air Force, since she was married to my grandfather, traveled with him all over the world, and raised three children all at the same time. I agree with her, she served right along with my grandfather and respected the fact that he wanted to serve his country. She stood by his side. I admire you Lauren, because I think it takes a special kind of woman to handle the military life. Congrats on getting your own place and taking that big step!
ReplyDeleteWhitney,
ReplyDeleteI agree with your grandmother. I respect men and women that fight for our country just as much as their spouses and families. Everyone involved is affected when it involves the military life. Thank you so much. You are very sweet and it is defiantly a challenge every day, but he is worth it! I know God has a plan for us and there is a reason he is taking us through this journey!